really feel like going warwick
MORSE
mathematics, operational research, statistics and economics
i just received some booklet thingy which is their syllabus i think...
want to do the maths/finance much more than maths/comsci.
applying to uk unis is so much better than applying us ones. its cheaper. and fuss-free. they don't lose the damn envelopes. and. now i'm all psyched up to go warwick. except they haven't accepted me! haha big problem there? and i haven't even applied to any scholarships! another big problem. write essays! shit lah.
you know, i think the level of expectation is too damn high. like since more than half the rj cohort is supposed to get 4As, everyone expects it.
that was what i expected too, before taking the papers.
now ah
forget it man.
i remember getting really upset after failing chem promos/cts. and someone was asking why i was so upset, since i predicted that i was going to fail anyways. but see, that was after i took the paper. before i took the paper, i expected to pass. that makes a world of a difference.
its so sad. that if you get perfect score, you'll just look at it, say 'good' and chuck it aside. but if you get a not so perfect score, you'll be crying you eyes out.
someone tell me i'm wrong?
getting very freaked out by my weight. its &@$%!@^%! annoying me.
i know i know alot of people will think i'm so luckily naturally thin and all. but i have a bad feeling this is unhealthy.
all the mosquito's fault. haha seriously lah if it didn't suck my blood i wouldn't have gotten dengue and my weight wouldn't be all weirded up.
alright so here's why i'm so annoyed.
during cny almost every relative asked why i was so thin. they must think i'm anorexic or something. haha actually my mum got it worse cos everyone asked her if she was starving me...
besides that, i ate a shitlot during cny. was eating at every house i visited. plus all the soft drinks. plus i was having a good time finishing all the snacks at home since no one else eats them anyways. btw that was between meals. i eat proper rice meals everyday ok.
and the best part is this,
over the course of cny, my weight dropped to 39.
how is that possible huh.
i haven't been 39 since like lower sec maybe. or primary sch.
that isn't the worse part lah.
the worse part was buying clothes. there were all the post-cny sales =D so being the cheapo me, i wanted to buy clothes then. especially tops cos i have a lack of them.
went into b.u.m. saw these nicee tops.
asked the salesgirl if they had small for the blue one. she looked at me, and told me i better just try the size first. so smart of her. their 'small' is too damn humongous for me. and when i asked her if there was a smaller one she laughed at me =(
the same thing happened at ebase too. and i like ebase stuff! =( there'll always be these big gaps between the cloth and me =( =( =(
it happened a grand total of nine times. trying on the smallest size to find that it doesnt fit. thats nine consecutive times by the way. so i got sick of trying on stuff.
if anyone keeps seeing me in the same set of clothes, its not my fault. the shops just don't want to let me buy anything. and no shopping at children's section. the clothes there are gross. look at robots can, but not clothes.
sigh.
i have crawled back up to 41 now.
i want muscles.
at least i have my greenblackwhite though ^^ haha that is so rafflesian.
really feel like going warwick
MORSE
mathematics, operational research, statistics and economics
i just received some booklet thingy which is their syllabus i think...
want to do the maths/finance much more than maths/comsci.
applying to uk unis is so much better than applying us ones. its cheaper. and fuss-free. they don't lose the damn envelopes. and. now i'm all psyched up to go warwick. except they haven't accepted me! haha big problem there? and i haven't even applied to any scholarships! another big problem. write essays! shit lah.
you know, i think the level of expectation is too damn high. like since more than half the rj cohort is supposed to get 4As, everyone expects it.
that was what i expected too, before taking the papers.
now ah
forget it man.
i remember getting really upset after failing chem promos/cts. and someone was asking why i was so upset, since i predicted that i was going to fail anyways. but see, that was after i took the paper. before i took the paper, i expected to pass. that makes a world of a difference.
its so sad. that if you get perfect score, you'll just look at it, say 'good' and chuck it aside. but if you get a not so perfect score, you'll be crying you eyes out.
someone tell me i'm wrong?
getting very freaked out by my weight. its &@$%!@^%! annoying me.
i know i know alot of people will think i'm so luckily naturally thin and all. but i have a bad feeling this is unhealthy.
all the mosquito's fault. haha seriously lah if it didn't suck my blood i wouldn't have gotten dengue and my weight wouldn't be all weirded up.
alright so here's why i'm so annoyed.
during cny almost every relative asked why i was so thin. they must think i'm anorexic or something. haha actually my mum got it worse cos everyone asked her if she was starving me...
besides that, i ate a shitlot during cny. was eating at every house i visited. plus all the soft drinks. plus i was having a good time finishing all the snacks at home since no one else eats them anyways. btw that was between meals. i eat proper rice meals everyday ok.
and the best part is this,
over the course of cny, my weight dropped to 39.
how is that possible huh.
i haven't been 39 since like lower sec maybe. or primary sch.
that isn't the worse part lah.
the worse part was buying clothes. there were all the post-cny sales =D so being the cheapo me, i wanted to buy clothes then. especially tops cos i have a lack of them.
went into b.u.m. saw these nicee tops.
asked the salesgirl if they had small for the blue one. she looked at me, and told me i better just try the size first. so smart of her. their 'small' is too damn humongous for me. and when i asked her if there was a smaller one she laughed at me =(
the same thing happened at ebase too. and i like ebase stuff! =( there'll always be these big gaps between the cloth and me =( =( =(
it happened a grand total of nine times. trying on the smallest size to find that it doesnt fit. thats nine consecutive times by the way. so i got sick of trying on stuff.
if anyone keeps seeing me in the same set of clothes, its not my fault. the shops just don't want to let me buy anything. and no shopping at children's section. the clothes there are gross. look at robots can, but not clothes.
sigh.
i have crawled back up to 41 now.
i want muscles.
at least i have my greenblackwhite though ^^ haha that is so rafflesian.